I need a lot of sleep. I honestly function the best on ten to eleven hours a night. If I don't get that much, I have to have a nap in the afternoon. When I don't get enough sleep, I start to go crazy. I feel like I'm depressed and that all that I have worked for and all that I do means nothing. I fight with my husband, can barely stand my children, and loathe myself. I have been to the doctor a few times asking for a blood draw to see if I'm anemic, diabetic, if I have thyroid problems, cancer...something that will justify my lack of energy. Nothing has ever turned up.
I was thinking about this reality of my life and had a small epiphany. Lots of moms I know either get up early and have time to plan, pray and be without children. Others I know stay up late and have that extra time. If I'm being good, I go to bed with my children and wake up when they do. I don't have that time.
Today I got an interesting call. The local daycare center called to tell me they had an opening three days a week in the morning. Last year I had inquired on such an arrangement and there were no openings so I forgot about it. At first, I was going to turn down the spot for my two-year-old, but decided to think on it. I've decided, in light of my lack of time without children, I am going to take advantage of the daycare. Hooray!